Emotional Toll

As an artist, my life directly impacts my music.  As human beings, people even the non-artistic type can hear, feel or see emotion in works of art.  The composing of music should never be mechanical, otherwise the soul and emotion may be lost.  At the same time, the composing of music should not be purely emotional, otherwise the focus and drive of the music may be lost.

Tragic events and festive celebrations that change my mood can often color my creative process.  Contrary to what I used to think tragic and depressing events do not always hinder my creative process.  I have written a few pieces inspired by tragic events that are among some of the strongest pieces I have composed.

I am writing about this topic because this past Wednesday my Grandmother, Shirley Bice, passed away.  I have been thinking a lot about her and I am trying to work through my emotions about her death.  This is a very difficult time for me and my family.  Currently, i am between pieces and as I think about the next piece I am going to write, I wonder how her passing will affect it.  Will this piece be composed in her memory?  I don't know.  In the past when I have composed a piece in the memory of a loved one, some time has passed.  This allows me to resolve my feelings about the event.  By waiting I feel that I am able to compose a piece that is a celebration of their life and not just a memorial.